I have officially decided to start out fresh and new. Man, I have had such a tough summer/semester and I am SICK of constantly thinking about the past and worrying about the future. EVERYDAY I fret about the same exact things…and I’ve come to realize it seriously harshes my mellow. When I’m dwelling on the past I not only feel down and frustrated, but it keeps me from living to the fullest right now! What’s the point??? I also think that dwelling on the past…makes me worry about my future! Now is now, and my future is later…I gotta just let go and let God take care of it. He knows what’s best for me anyway. The three things I want to completely focus on right now:
1. Personal devotions and journaling: I gotta get back to doing this every single day. Obviously devotions keep me on track. I’ve found that since I’ve been slacking on my devotions, my life is really lacking “fruit”. I’ve been struggling with things that used to be easy like…self control and patience. I gotta get going and live completely for God. Oh and journaling. Journaling is like my...own free therapy session! Haha. I’m able to spit out everything that happened during the day, reveal everything I’m thinking and process all the feelings that those thoughts bring up!
2. FINALSSSS! See…there’s seriously no time for other thoughts and feelings because it’s totally time to buckle down and study. All this worrying has brought my grades down in 2 of my classes (I HATE chem…srsly) and hopefully if I let go and completely focus, I’ll bring it back up! Only a few more weeks left…I think I’m going to make it through:)
3. Work: BLEH! Haha…I literally have nightmares about work…but I think it’s because I’m not giving work 100%. I’m usually all tired and grumpy from school by the time I make it to work..but who cares! I gotta give it my all and smile smile SMILE!!!:)
Man, this is going to be easier said than done because I’m basically conditioned to think about the past everyday…but I’m pretty positive I’ll live a much more joyful and fulfilled life If I change that!
Ps. For those who do not yet know, I am in LOVEEEE...with my handsome Denzel:) He's my baby<3
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